I dreamt of you
Being in your arms
Surrounded by you
The feel of your breath, your skin, your warmth
Then, I saw other women with you
Even though I longed for you
My heart ached for you
There were other women
It was like I had never known you
Like there never was an us.
Never was a ring you designed for me
Where two bands of metal are united
By a rock.
Like we were never.
It felt as though you were never mine.
Like 11/11/11 never existed.
Like you were a dream, that never came true.
And so I turned away from you.
From sharing you, from losing you.
From knowing you.